Loose

I cant feel the tears run down my face because I'm numb.
I cant hear the birds chirp in the trees because I'm deaf.
I cant move my fingers or my toes because I'm immobile.
But I can sit here and stare at the ceiling wondering why.
Why did you leave me here like this?
To sit and act like the dead.

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I left that bitch behind.
She was nothing to me.
How long would it have took her to open her eyes and see??
She had to many boundaries.
To many things to follow.
Who would want to deal with that?
Not me, definitely not me.

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My fingers are callused from tying the knots in this rope.
My mascara is smeared among my face.
I'm sure he'd laugh at me.
I'm such a disgrace.
I'm standing upon a chair, tightening the rope.
No one will notice I'm gone.
*chair goes crashing and a body is left hanging*

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I'm lost without her.
I don't know what to do.
I think I'll go talk to her.
What could I possibly loose?
As I walked to her house my self esteem was built.
She couldn't possibly resist me.
But as I stepped in her room...I lost everything.
Life was to be hell.