I Am

I am innocent,
I am lost
I am tainted,
I am a fake.

Love surrounds me
Yet I can’t feel it
Body warmth is useless
I am numb from the inside

I am sad
I am depressed
I am lost
I relapse under stress.

Why do you notice me?
Why do you care?
You’re making this hard
I can feel your stares.

I am close
I am losing
I am tired
I am falling

I made a promise,
One that no one knows,
A promise between myself
The darkness
The silence
The forgotten souls.

I am leaving
I am saving
I am crying
I am surrendering

You said you’re proud
But I am disappointed
My time is running out
The deadline is one its way.
The pressure is too much
The promise needs to be untouched
Yet I feel it itching closer and closer
As the end draws near.

I am in the dark
I am falling in the abyss
I am useless
I am giving up

I will never wear a cap
I won’t wear a gown
I won’t hold that piece of paper making you proud.
I will lie down
And float away
Feeling peace and comfort
That I tried to stay.

I am gone
I am floating
I am at peace
I was living.