Pain

I promised I'd stop.I dont know why because I knew I couldn't keep it. The day another friend randomly hated me again. Pushed me over the edge. You see the one cut on my wrist and ask I lie of course. I've become a lier so it's easy. You drop it for now you ask again later but I don't tell you. Even you don't know the true reason I like the pain. You don't know he abuses me. You think it's a normal brother sister fight. It's not he hits again I can't go on like this. He took my phone again locked the door and read my text. He then pushed me down. After that he kicked me in the head. He screamed you like the pain dont you. I know I should stick up to my little brother but honestly I'm terrified of him.He verbally abuses me to. I should tell some one so some one knows what causes my suiced. So see I lied about the reason and only told every one half. His wicked smile he has before he hits is on my mind as I see the blood run down my wrist. Don't call me a baby you don't know howuch his words cut through me like a knife. Maybe theylle finally know when they read my last words. For now though I'll plater on a fake smile and an act say I'm all right. Every one believes my act I wish some one could see past it. Into my heart,soul,bruises,and cuts