I long for this voice to leave me.

I long for this voice to leave me.

I’ve put up with it for so long
It’s there when I look in the mirror
It’s there to break my spirits
It’s there to remind me I’m not good enough

I battle with my thoughts and
Fight with the voice
I never win.
Then it reminds me
‘You’re a loser, and you’re useless’

To which I reply,
‘I will conquer you one day,
I will banish you from my head
and hang up wanted dead or alive posters around my head
because one day my new voice will
stand strong, proud and victorious
and will protect me from your vicious lies.