On the Edge

On The Edge

For the time being I’ll wish you well.
The truth never set me free, so I’m trying by myself.
Staying here till the sun starts to rise.
I’ll do anything that I have to, till I forget you.

Till I can go back in time, I don’t want you around.
I need to forget what I’ve been trying to retain.
Sometimes I catch myself staring into space.
Or find myself up against the wall.

Rolling fast, you were on a mission.
I still felt the rush, but it was different.
Somehow I knew it would happen.
Still the shadows made things quite ugly.

You were tired; you spoke with your tongue-tied.
Our situation is bleak.
I know my puffy eyes don’t lie.
Even if I manage to hold the tears inside.

It’s unfair that I should hurt.
While you go on, your glossy eyes unfazed.
I’m living on a frozen lake.
Of cracking ice and shame.

I used to stay up all night talking to you.
Now I fall asleep with the help of my tears.
And wish each day could be spent at home.
Falling asleep to the same drone.

If I could forget you now.
Life would get better.
I could leave this depression.
The suppression of tears and pain.

My ice is slowly melting, as I see the sun.
If I can realize my mistake, of holding on for too long.
I can run off this danger zone.
Before I slip into the frigid water, no return in sight.

I’ll still feel alone.
But gentle, heart at ease.
Gazing at the sky.
No longer feeling the need, to cry.