How I Feel?

How I feel? I feel a nothingness inside. Is it because I closed up my heart or is it because there's something wrong with me. I feel un-motivated. I'm at the crossroads of my destiny and I don't know what I should do. I don't know who I am or who I want to be. I feel like my calling is right in front of me, but I'm too blind to see it. It's like it's drifting farther and farther from my sight and I will never be able to reach it. Will I ever be able to reach and grasp it? Will I ever find the motivation and inspiration I need in order to see it? Will my heart soften up again, so I can befriend great people? Tha'ts how I feel.