"Now we're back to square one."

I sat nervously waiting,
For your reply.
My hands shook recklessly,
As I typed again.
'I should leave', said my fingers;
While my brain screamed at me,
"You've got your whole life
To leave each new guy.
What the fuck are you thinking?
You had him fine before,
Don't give up so easily.
It's love right?"
And I shut that voice right up.
I knew from the bottom of my heart,
I'd never find true love from past experiences,
At least if it was claimed to be,
It was just for pretend,
So here we are again.