Shivers

His cold body lies in my lap. His shivers not only run through his body but mine as well.
I run my hands through his hair and tell him it will be alright. I tell him not to worry,
that life's worth living still.His eyes look so very tired so very worn.

Slowly he closes his eyes and I worry that this could be the last time
I see him or hear his voice. I close my eyes with him, I recall memories
of love, happiness and tenderness only towards each other. I whisper quietly to
you in your ear all the fun we had. How I enjoyed it when our bodies laid together.
When you held me close and kissed me. I told you words I've never
said before.I told you I loved you. You made my world spin.

I said I loved you once but moved on I passed on.
I found a new lover someone more suited for me, more
willing. I told you I was sorry. I need to be forgiven. I need to know
that you know what I did wasn't out of hate but another form of love. A love
not meant to hurt you. I whisper that you once again make my life
worth living and healed the wound that I thought was to
large to be fixed. But I was healed

As these words of love gone passed where said his body became more limp.
As these words that escaped my lips it seemed like they where killing him.
It seemed like my words where ripping his heart out and pulling it
apart. Once I stopped speaking it seemed his body relaxed. I
placed my hand on his cheek and felt the tears running
down. I pulled his face to reach mine and said the
words that could have killed him. I told him
I onced loved him and kissed his lips.
And placed his cold body back to
it's resting place.