Mixed Feelings

I feel happy
Yet I'm bleeding inside
I feel excited
Yet I just fell shitty inside
I feel open and unphased
Yet I'm annoyed and bothered
I feel loved
Yet I feel unloved
I feel like everyone's on my side
Ha! They are only out for themselves
I feel that everyone is nice and honest
But they are really just selfabsorbed backstabbers
This poems doesn't rhym, it may not even make scence
But at least you get the message