once again distroyed

You caused this
Reoccurrence of murdering pressure
Placed on my brain
There has to be a law of the gods
To show I shouldn’t be
So take your sphere I’m waiting for you
Slowly slipping back down the cliff
That I tried so hard to climb up once again
After those before you pushed me down
I tumble over sharp rocks and ridged memories
You caused this homicide
Destroying me with your own new twist
Tarring me lower piece by piece
Striping away every defense
I viciously threw your way
I saw that look in your eyes
As you apologized
You knew I was to forgive and forget
The lobotomy effects you have on my soul
Are just to strong for me to hold my ground
Beating viciously as my heart stumbles
To keep up with your racing lies and shame
I finally close my eyes
To chance my thoughts
And condemn you for your numerous mistakes
But your words are sudden
And your voice does not shake
The convincing thesis
Of laughs and no past
Appeal to the scarred eyes
And infectious fake smiles
But something inside me burns alive
Screaming to stop pretending
And follow fates all too familiar road
Of dark destructive loneliness