Moments Never Had...

Missing a moment I’ve never had, a feeling I’ve never felt…
Like a person never met, or a heart never touched.
Standing at a grave on which I’ve never knelt…

Have you felt what I’ve felt, or does my mind lie?
Were we close? Did I know you? Why am I here now?
After so many years of wandering… am I here to die?

Feelings of something left undone… forgiveness needed.
Am I here for that? Forgiveness? From you?
Was there some piece of advice I never heeded?

No. This grave is not yours, but that of my shame.
A blank stone and a shattered cross, what have I done?
Missing a moment I never had… forgetting my own name.

I wander again, far from the place and the grave…
I can’t help but think of it always, the memories at the edge…
The feelings intangible, the pain unbearable, as you always gave.

I’ll apologize for what I’ve done, but it won’t make a difference now…
I need no forgiveness anymore, and so to Death I shall bow.