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Everynight I sat and prayed
wishing to be something im not
pleadingfor a gift that
I know cant be bought
wanting to be more
than words could ever say
show the world who I am
and never fade away

(whats it like to feel alive
whats it like to be free
whats it like not deprived
whats it like to not be me
whats it like to feel awake
whats it like when you dream
whats it like to not feel fake
whats its like to not be me)

I worked so hard
but still lived so weak
trouble getting up
mumbling the words I speak
use your sences, 5 and all
but mostly your eyes
im not how I look, much more,
covered in disguise

(.....)

Im not me aymore
I used to see differently before
stuck in this empty mind
reaching for what I couldnt find

(....)

I know Im different now
but Im still me somehow