Night Mischief

Tossing and Turning. the nights roll on as the nights grow longer. I'm alone and wake up in insecurity. Searching for the comfort and protection. i need to be in your arms to feel calm. Lost in darkness and far into the distant realm of my mind, only one light shines the way. The light of a face. Near or far....my heart beats faster with each glance of reassurance. the thought of your protection makes me feel alive. U reach for the light to feel the comfort of what could be. I need the wind of light and the sacrifice of angels singing just to be in your arms tonight. To not run away and hide anymore. Yet when i have the satisfaction of your grace I become ignorant and selfish. No one can glnace at you or else my heart feels unwanted. Jealousy burns red like a internal war of disgrace. i am losing, but there is still that light of hope. Tossing and turning, the nights roll on and on, when i wake all will be forgotten. Yet none will be forgiven.