Blood Or Tears

Why me?
I never did anyrhing so let me be
All you do is yell and complain
Yet you have nothing to gain
Make me feel like shit and wanna die
You don't even make me wanna try
Just take it and crawl in a hole
Where I can let my tears pour
Where no one can hear me weap or die
A place where i can just cry
And be alone
When you speak to me in that tone
It makes me want to hurt myself
As if feeling pain would make it better
But it just makes it wetter
Because now blood and tears now pour
It's as if they were at war
For who gets to shed more
Blood or tears?
To remind myself im alive
Is like taking a massive dive
In a pool of tears and blood
It would be all just be better if i was dead
A couple of mistakes and I deserve to die?
That just makes me wanna cry
So which will it be
Blood or tears?