Fracture

I can taste your blood on my lips,
I can feel your fading warmth with my fingertips,
Gazing into your beautiful eyes,
One less voice to scream at with lies...

The things I see, I know aren't there,
But I still feel them everywhere,
The voices are screaming for me to stop this,
But I'm not listening, I'm not remiss...

My mental state is on the verge of collapse,
All this pretentiousness is snapping a synapse,
I'm falling forever but I'm on the ground,
I know I am screaming but I can't make a sound...

Breaking under the pressure of daily life,
I can't keep balance, I can't drop this knife,
I can only find solace inside my own head,
But my conscience, the voices, they all want me dead...

I can hear you singing my favorite song,
But your blood on my hands tells me that I'm wrong,
Your voice is so beautiful, I can't help but smile,
I know what I've done, but let's pretend for awhile...

I can hear you crying, you're so afraid of me,
I'm not one bit human, I'm a monstrosity,
I lay beside you, and feel that you're cold,
I ask if you're alright, but I'm never told...

I hold you close to me, I don't want to let go,
At any other time, you would've said no,
All that exists are my mind's white walls,
I sit obediently as a rough voice calls...

These men are so nice, they wear funny blue clothes,
They put me in a car, and I don't know where it goes,
I'm a little tired, so I think I'll close my eyes,
I can't help but smile and dream about someone who dies...

When I awake, I'm in a soft white room,
I'm aware that this place is now my tomb,
I hear your laugh, and I'm glad that you're here,
I know you'll keep me company, I may be a while, Dear...