Red Tears

I've always been scared of the dark,
I've always wanted light,
When I was younger I'd just flick a switch,
And everything would be alright.

The darkness would disappear,
And I'd be able to smile,
But that was a long time ago,
I haven't smiled in a good while.

Because my switch is broken,
So the dark is always there,
And now I'm always afraid,
And there's no one to care.

I need to distract myself,
Get away from my fears,
I cut my wrist,
And watch the red tears.

The colour stands out,
So I focus on it,
Anything to make me feel better,
Even if it's only a bit.

So I do it again,
It feels so good,
It gets rid of dark,
Like I knew it would.

It's like the switch,
It gets rid of the dark,
Except this switch is different,
It leaves a mark.

But I keep going,
It's the only way,
Because I'm by myself,
Just like everyday.

I might go too far,
I might even die,
But the dark would be gone forever then,
Is that how you say goodbye?