This fight I live

Pain to core
I do not know what I am looking for
For the silence leaves me restless
Do not leave yourself defenseless
For you do not know what lies
Can you hear the utter cries
When the pain inside dies
Do you know what to find
The soul of the forgotten
What I have never have yet gotten
Why not search for love
When there’s nothing to think of
For that is the one above
The constant lies
The constant change
The constant pain
The constant fight
I have died but never lived
Give me time to revive
From this constant sin I call life
Just let me give up this fight