Who am I

the pain I feel is beyond comprehension
I just don't know what to do anymore
This is just so hard for me
I am scared of what I'll become
The pain is eating me alive
I am becoming a person I don't know
Darkness is enclosing me
My breaths becoming shorter
The steel blade slicing my arm
The crimson red pouring out
Till finally I am numb
The pain is over now
A tear falls from my eye