Dark Smiles.

This darkness passes through me like a tidal wave.
Leaving me dismantled and unfixable.
A shadow of who I used to be leaving me unsafe.

The sweet taste of regret fresh on my lips.
Horrifying images of the past rolling by like a movie.
Darkness encompassing me in a total eclipse.

A zombie of myself takes complete control.
Leads me through life in a numb, dead like state.
Not caring if I live or die; you can’t console.

Every past addiction making itself known,
Even you can’t stop how everything feels.
All I want is what I can’t have; to be left alone.

For to be completely alone, gives forbidden reasoning.
To be alone, means ability to harm myself.
Alone in a dark world, where I’m lost and not responding.

Smiling on the outside, dying on the in.
No one really sees it; so to be left alone…
Crying out, sinking down, and giving in.

I let the darkness have his way, and take me.
Take me far away, where I can’t be found.
Deep in a coma, down in my dark state, I flee.

Letting the darkness seep in, wasting away.
Smiling on the outside, dying on the in.
Becoming a zombie of the dark where I’ll stay.