The Truth In My Lies

Find the truth in my lies
Not every word is fake
I get you don't see my tries
But it's my life I'd like to take

I remember when you would hug me
Telling me everything was ok
But now I can see
It was my bull shit that saved you from my ways

Do you remember the nights
Where we would text until it was day
You always lifted me to new heights
Telling me everything way ok 

What I did was wrong
But did you really have to go
Will it be long
Before I let you know

You were the only one who understood
Just what to say and do
And like I promised I would
I will never forget you

I will never forget the days I let your wrists bleed
And to this day I wonder
Is that how you will succeed
But that I won't even begin to even ponder

I remember turning around and seeing you were gone
I didn't know what to do
I don't think I can go on
Because I don't  know how to