Bad Person

I should hate her...but I don't
does that make me a bad person.

I should never want to speak to her again, but I find myself sending her messages
does that make me a bad person.

I should never want to see her face again, but I look at a picture of her everyday
does that make me a bad person.

I should never want to hear her name again, but I hear it everyday and smile
does that make me a bad person.

I should never want to say her name again, but I catch myself saying it
does that makes me a bad person.

I shouldn't care about her feelings, but I do all the time
does that make me a bad person,

I wanted to die to make her hurt as much as I did, but I didn't because I still never want to see her cry or in pain
does that make me a bad person.

I should never want to love her and call her mine again, but I hope everyday she changes her mind and wants me back
does that make me a bad person.

Most people would say no, but to me I feel like a bad, horrible person for wanting her to be happy with or without me.