when will i feel okay?

.when will i feel okay?
and when will i believe u when u say ill be fine?
because the days get longer and harder to stay strong
and the tears fall more and more for no reason
and the cuts form more and more everytime u let me go and walk away
it feels like i am left with my thoughts
that slowly murder me
and my screams get to be louder
and my dreams get worse and worse

when will i feel okay?
i kno im fine
when u pull me close to u
and whisper i love u beautiful in my ear
when we just stare into each others eyes
when we just hold each other in the moment
but it ends the minute u pull away from me
when u hafta leave my side
and i loose it
my calmness my safety

when will i feel okay?