I Wished So Hard...

Today I watch her, silent, as always
She walks in front of me in the hallway
I envy the way she wiggles her hips
The swish of her hair, the pout of her lips

Her heels strike the marble, clack clack clack
Away she goes now, to meet her dear Jack
She wears a cute dress to shows off her legs
For her I would die, to her I would beg

Ask her now to transform my appearance
To look a wonder, speak with coherence
Don't want to be me, don't want to stutter
My wish is to finally be just like her

What's this? Alas! My Angel has tripped
Her heel in the flagstone, caused her to slip
And scatter her things, a halo of books
I see her notice me, tries not to look

I gather my courage, then I approach her
Pick up her things and notice in wonder
Mascara dribbles down her trembling chin
Contrasting black on her ivory skin

"Why are you crying?" I can't help but ask
The pain slips, shifts, beneath the careful mask
She gazes at me, with deep shining eyes
For a time we hold contact, she breaks down and cries

"My life is a sham!" She hiccups and heaves
The tears from her cheeks, she wipes on her sleeves
"My father's a freak, my mother a fraud!
They don't love me, they're always abroad!

"They tell me things that I don't want to hear
They seek to endure me, not to endear.
The one thing I can do is stand, be pretty
Smile and wave at their friends from the City

"Those bastards in suits look at me, leer!
Solely at my figure, clad in cashmere
I hate my good looks, I despise them so!
It's the one thing they notice in me, you know?"

I stare at her, stunned, while she looks at her shoe
"I've always wanted to be just like you"
Those words were not mine, I felt my head spin
Then I knew we were equal, I let my self grin