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As I look back,
I see love is what you lacked.
Had enough for him and the other two,
But I was the one you'd always chew.
Say that I was the bad one,
And said 'I deserve to be happy hun'.
Now I feel like something needs to be said,
And I'll put these words in your head.
The tears stopped falling awhile back,
And this is what I've pack.
You gave up no matter what you think,
It shook me until I blinked.
My head cleared fast,
I saw that spell that you both cast.
Only real time we spent together then,
Was when you'd come in my room if and when.
You never knew what went on inside my mind,
Seemed like the things you didn't want to find.
I needed help and you couldn't see,
What was really wrong with me.
Thought I was bad for the things I did,
Always saying 'Who gives a shit?'.
Left me in my room for months at a time,
Never did you see me shine.
Sat there alone trying to cope,
With nothing but paper pens and hope.