memories

these memories
they drive me crazy
i laugh
i cry
i smile and tear up
i feel everything i've ever felt
when i was with you
the longing
the saddness
the fierce protectiveness
and refusing to let you go
i never let you go...
every kiss
every touch
every funny thing you've ever said
all forever in my mind
your eyes
looking back in mine
that moment
that whisper
"i see you"
you didn't know what i meant?
i really did see you then
straight into you soul
a soul i found sacred
a soul i never wanted to lose
and every kiss
the heat
the joy
the feeling of being lost
with only you around
and that promise
"eventually"
hell, even your smell
a silly comfort
but comfort all the same
i want that back
all of that
but can it ever be?
can we ever go back,
can we ever fix this?
you have no idea
just how much you mean to me