I Still Can't Believe You're Gone

April 6, 2010

Was the day I got the call

That told me I'd lost you.

I was at school that day

And knew something was wrong

Even before my phone rang.

You went peacefully in your sleep

But that didn't make me feel better

About losing my own personal

Marvin Martian,

My Eeyore #1.

I should have gone to see you

That one last time,

But I didn't.

I went for a week

To help clean out your house,

The house where we created

So many memories.

It was so hard

To be there without you,

To go through your things

And know it was for the last time.

We knew you were with us

The day of your memorial service,

From the time we stopped at the store

And the wind blew up our skirts,

To the three photo machines

That weren't working when we ran late.

We knew you were with us

From the poodle-like woman working there,

To my cousins tripping over nothing

Everywhere we went.

To repay your for all you did,

We scattered your ashes In a way perfect for you

And no one else.

You wanted your remains

Tossed in a dumpster,

But instead we put them

In an old peanut butter jar

Before pouring you out of an airplane

Over the airport and the houses and pools

Of some overly rich people.

It's now been over a year,

But I still can't believe you're gone.

I'll love you and miss you

For the rest of my life.

Rest in peace, Grampa.