Mixed Fears

Torn up inside by mixed fears. I’m broken inside with lost thoughts of past encounters. I don’t know what to think or how to feel. I live each day as it comes. Lifting my head up to every thing that hits me. Pushing through the pain and fighting to win each day. I’m lost and I’m looking for the light home. I live in a gorgeous nightmare that pulls me left and right. When I think things are going well it turns me upside down and changes the situation. The end is uncertain and my mind can’t make a finale. I’m running down a dark alley to a brick wall. Shadows are coming from every which way. All I can do is cower and scream, yet my scream isn’t heard. It’s a hollow sound of nothing. All I can feel is the wet feeling of my tears roll down my face and I shudder in to my knees. No hope for my life to be spared. I’m forgotten for all eternity…

Then out of the darkness, a small light shines through. I slowly raise my head and reach towards it. Is this the blip of revival I need to survive…or is it a trick? I continue with curiosity. I close my eyes and reach as far as I can on hands and knees. The touch of warmth overcomes my body as fast as the plague. It fills me with hope and happiness. I slowly open my eyes to see the hazel-grey eyes of my savior. From that moment I knew I was safe. I collapse into the arms of my loved one and cry. I now know that I am alive and protected. I will be secured in safety and love for the rest of eternity. I no longer feel pain or suffering, but love and survival. With that I am whole. With you I am yours.