I always eff up?

Baby,
I'm so sorry.
Thinking those nasty thoughts,
Making you believe i'd hurt myself that night.
It kills me to see you walk away.
I dont want you too.
Eternity, is how long i wanna stay.
I love you,
and i trust you,
I miss the me i was. a day ago,
Dancing at 5 in the morning.
Staying up thinking im bothering you,
But maybe i was.
Now i'm crying and thinking things i dont need to be.
Threatining to hurt myself over something dumb.
Baby i love you never forget that,
Can't i just go back?
It crushes me to watch as i sit down,
You walk away to skip rocks without me holding you,
from behind not making you kiss me.
What happened?
I f*cked it up that's what.
Now those two years are ruined.
I'm trying to look past it,
But baby look in my eyes,
Cant you see the tears that i cry?
All because we both can't move over this one small little mess up?
I'll change if you promise me,
Never to leave me.
Never to ignor me like you are,
And to stay with me by myside through everything.
<3