I'm Sorry I Believed

You lied
You said I never have to worry
I tried
To trust in ever word you told me
But things were broken faster
Than I ever thought they would be
I'm sorry

The things you whispered in my ear
All the truth tormenting me
Hanging right there on your lips
Why- why couldn't you just tell me
That this was only meant to be goodbye
I'm sorry

You came
Barging in- I let you
You blamed
Me for everything
And all the things that went right
A slip of fate- just let it die
I'm sorry

The things I told you- everything
I let you in, I'm sorry I am so stupid
You warned me, oh you did so many times
And then ignored your own advice
And pushed me under... I couldn't breathe
I'm sorry...

I screamed
I just wanted you to see me
I dreamed
Of what you and I could be
Again- everything was lying
My own reality
Betrayed... me...
I'm sorry

I let you kill me, oh it felt so sweet
The way the knife turned just by your touch
And now I fear that I can never be
The way I was with you, that was enough
But you soon saw I'm worthless and I see
That I'll never rise to more than me
You lied so many times, so gentle- and i forgave
But I can never be the same

I'm sorry... for all the things I could never do quite right
I'm sorry... that goodbye was never quite enough
I'm sorry that every time you turned around, you hated me
And for every lie you ever spoke... I'm sorry I believed...