Living (Just Barely)

To be defeated is such a wonderful experience
but to be able to close my eyes
and block out the perfidious memories
would be my own saviour

I'm just trying to live
barely... yes I know

Beauty has never contaminated me
perhaps one day I'll be concerned
But I don't care anymore
I'll be gone before the sabbath

I'm just trying to live
barely... yes I know

Can't I be left to my own devices
without worries of red ribbon flesh
I just want to fall alseep
because nothing will keep me here

The dead cannot allow such conventions
of the mind, the heart and the soul
Just think of the solace that will swallow us
but won't reject us like anyone would dare to