I want to change.

Those seven years.
Of torture
Of pain.
Of tears.

All the tears i cried.
I always tried to hide.

Now I've left that horrid place
describing how I feel,
out of place
is an understatement.

i faced my first day of new school
like i was about to be executed.
Because of the fear struck into my stone heart.
my fear of being excluded.

This is the result.
Of my experience in hell.
You see what you peaple
in all your teasing verbal abuse in hell,
you see what it's done to me?

I'm afraid of my own friends.
Scared, that
If I finally open up
Remove my mask
and show them my real self
They'll hate me.

Peaple like me because I'm nice
But I'm only nice because I want peaple to like me.
(Quote from yuki sohma - fruits basket)

Inside, I'm selfish, greedy, and horrible.
I don't want peaple,
to have to know that side of me.
but it always manages to lash out
at the worst times.

See what you've done to me?
I've become corrupt.
And I have one thing to say to you.

Go
To.
Mother
Fucking
Hell