Tongue Tied

I dont know what to say
im tongue tied
i was the one to end it
but i couldnt
i was tongue tied
tongue tied cris crossed with anger
its raining now
the clouds seem to follow me
the windsheild is covered in water beads
im going 45
i seem to be quite like the cloads
weeping for some strange reason
not knowing when to stop
i guess i just wasent good enough for you
i see you everywhere
in my head
at her party
at walmart
all you want to do is come over with ur friends and say hi
to prove that you wouldnt miss me
but im different
every good girl leaves a good sized mark
but every time i see you your eyes widen
i have this strange feeling that your nervous
i embarrse you
but this time you leave a mark somewhere between my heart and head
its confussing how your different in the same ways
but i dont care its over
i ended it and you broke the glass
i swept it up and threw it away
im tongue tied
i have nothing to say to you
just.......tongue tied