Empty

I remember the days,
When I woke up and did not want to die,
And I long for those days,
Where there was a reason to be alive

I am a completely different person now,
I see everything in black and white,
My mother tries to help me,
But all we do is fight

I do not know how I got to this point,
All I know are the pains in my joints

I wish I could get myself out of this rain,
These feelings are slowly driving me insane...