What did happen?

I have wondered were you are
I have wondered how you are.
I always wonder why i still love you.
I always wonder what happened to our silly little games and when they turned into something so much more
I wonder why all the time
We use to be the best of friends
Then we became boyfriend and girlfriend
then we became friends one more time before you left.
Then you left and now i am left here to wallow in my own pity because my heart still hurts because of it.
I wish i hadn't said most of those things
I've realized it was just much of me as it was you.
I want your friendship back
I know i said all that but only because i was hurt.
You also said you loved me after we broke up
You left me a note on my driveway.
Saying you cared about me so much but you had to break my heart so you could try to mend her broken one.
Then you said keep it in memory of you in case something happens to you.
Then i forgave you.
and you use me to cheat on her
.......
Yet i still need you in my life.........