Terminal in Love

Is it your former promiscuity
that feeds my insecurity?
I was always so peaceful, angelic and pure
Now I’m terminal in love, pain with no hope of cure.
I reach and feel you close to me
but there’s more to you than what I see
Open up and tell me what you think
or act numb and more concerned with drink
Open up and tell me how you feel
So I can sleep assured that this is real
or leave me to wander in a love-ridden daze
Lost yet devoted to your heart’s labyrinthine maze
And I’ll never compete with the loves in your past
I’m too fragile and fearful, will your love really last?
You read all my feelings, secrets lit up like a spark
But you close off to me and I can’t read in the dark
Because you make me and break me with just one short look
And in the lines of my life you take up the whole book
But in the book of your life filled with love, lust and rage
Please forgive me for believing I fill only a page.