I'll Always Be Waiting

I'm sorry I'm dumb,
I'm sorry I got jealous,
I'm sorry I didn't trust you,
But you didn't trust me.
I miss the way you used to run your fingers through my hair,
I miss the way you would hold me,
Like you never wanted to let go.
I miss your spontaneity,
Like the time you met me at the bathrooms during sixth period,
Even though you didn't have to.
I miss the way you used to look at me,
Like I was the only person in the world.
I miss the way you would kiss me,
'Cause your kisses were as good as eating watermelon on a hot summer's day.
I hate the way you would get us into so much trouble,
But I liked living life on the edge when I was with you.
I hate the way you would push my buttons just to see what I was like when I got mad,
But in the same sense I thought it was cute.
I hate the fact that I'm not with you anymore,
But I understand that it's my fault.
I told you,
Before you left,
That I had a funny feeling about that weekend.
Like something bad was going to happen.
Well, something bad did happen,
I lost the one I love because jealousy got the best of me.
I don't know what I can say,
Or what I should do to make you forgive me,
But all I can say right now,
Is that I love you and I'll always be waiting for you.