Dawn

I dreamed that you had died
I’m forever alone on the boundary I have defied
I’ve been watching forever for the sunrise
But now I can see through your lies

The various voices I thought we had silenced
Remain, though they have become distanced
What can never be holds steady in this heart
I’m falling down into the abyss, for now I shall part

To the great yonder beyond the limits of our “love”
I’ll dream of what has not died and flown to the above
This moment never seems to end in my head
Insanity creeps into me with every word I should have said

I’m getting to this hell with no true direction
Only traveling by the breath of my own discretion
I shall not stop until I see the light of day
For then it means I shall be taken away

Moments battle by me as I fall upon the ground
Choking with the tears that create no heard sound
Hoping that these knees can muster the strength to venture on
To the light created by the wings of the new dawn

I can’t believe it. Going through my head.
I see the image I thought had gone dead
Her light, what can never be mine once more
Unless I venture to the times we shared before

I feel the sun laughing at my pitiful appearance
There’s no strength left within this disappearance
And I can hear the violin of my demise playing
To the tune of the parts of my heart failing

How sorely my core aches for her benevolent touch
But that would be asking the past sun too much
For I am but a forgotten shadow within her eyes
Every memory of me within her so easily dies

For I was never of any importance in her life
Unless I stopped the clock to give the sun strife
What can never be once more; what was deemed special
Now can be seen in my eyes as nothing more than a battle

I pray for the silence to cremate this past pain
But every prayer is like any other, all in vain
For it will never be the same as the past
When it was deemed that love must last

I can see the sunrise in the northern light
But alas, I am forever forsaken in the night.