addressed to my mother

Your feelings at hand are apparent
You've probably made sure of that
You're practically begging me to stay
But I promise, I don't want this to hurt you
I want this to help me
Don't you want me happy?

I'll have to leave you anyway
I'm just hastening that day's arrival
I just want happiness
And that doesn't come easy when I'm here
Don't you care how I feel?