Pretense

I hate romance

All these feelings that make hearts dance

All these lies that make me cry

Honestly, I'd rather die

I cannot handle these silly things

Waiting to see if my phone rings

I never got that call

So I built up a wall

Defense from the dark

A boy turned shark

Preying on my heart

Asking me to play the part

Of his lover; Just for a night

Sending butterflies alight

Told me his feelings are real

True intentions he does conceal

The next day the love is gone

My bed is empty before dawn

Breaking everything that is me

When I look in the mirror, who do I see?

Not the girl I once was

But someone lonely who just does

Whatever it takes not to break

Not to let my feelings wake

I cannot simply handle what this earth has dealt

This is the worst pain I have ever felt

So hard to get out of this hole that I'm in

Pushing me deeper, changing my skin

A hard shell is born for my defense

Now it's easy to have this pretense.