A Mistake.

Your ending’s are all the same,
You never seize to point the finger and toss around the blame.
A shadow of bad luck casts itself on your lonely days,
And those you love are hurt by your selfish, inconsiderate ways.
Cynicism and greed are the self-paved paths to your own downfall.
Still you deny having anything to do with your own misery at all.
As usual you cling to the victimizations buried in your past.
And then you wonder why nothing ever lasts.
Numerous promises made only to be broken,
And masked lies intently spoken.
A word from the wise pray for salvation before it’s too late.
But you don’t, time is up to take it all back, repent, start over with a clean slate.
Now there’s no redemption, no second chances, no one who’ll forgive.
Nothing but tears, regrets, you’re cursed to go on and struggle to live.
A mistake, now you’re all on your own.
A mistake, now you’ll take the time to atone.
Face to face with the sin in your life,
Hand in hand with your melancholy and strife.
There’s no denying it, there’s no escaping it.
Time to look in the mirror and accept the self you could never admit.
The self that turned out to be me.
I wish I could take back everything that I did and become who I used to be.
But there’s no way, no way to kill the fuck-up I truly am.
There’s no way to escape my fate of being damned.
I seriously fucked up everything for myself; I’m in charge of my misery, glad to be so in control.
Knocked off my high-horse, I’ll pay the price; take the blame, anything to save my soul.
My mistakes, now I’m all on my own.
My mistakes and I’m left here to wait all alone.
I blamed the wrong on phantoms and demons yet none exist but me.