How Can I Ever Forget?

as i sit and shake
my mind goes berserk
i hear voices
voices
that i could never explain

it feels like im going
crazy
am i?

iv lost all control over my body
as flashbacks scramble
into my brain

i dont want to remember
but cant forget
all the hell you put me through

why cant i let this go?
i need to know why...

why you left me like this
shattered and broken
un-able to be fixed

why you smothered,
abused,
and broke me

how can i ever forget ?