Saving Face

So here goes nothing, those words that were long held on to,
Updating my life as if it means something to you.
Leaving you hints in the stares,
Like I can make you be honest with me.
But it’s all just natural, to feel like this,
It’s all just natural, is what you’ll say.
But none of this is natural, and I’m sick of hearing normal.
If this is normal then take my coarse voice and take my heavy head,
And swaddle them like a lover, seduce them into bed.
Seduce them like a girl who’s had her fair share to drink,
Seduce them like a boy who has no shame.

I’ve seen your kind before, and it hurts like hell.
It hurts to be so all alone, to wish better for yourself.
But we have nothing more to prove, we have nowhere else to go.
The long journeyed road we are on splits like a fork.
One side is for me, the other for you.
And some say that you take the road together,
But I don’t need your body to get me by.
I don’t need your silent companionship like a desert needs dry.
I’m dry as the day I was born.
I’m dry and substanceless.
If this is all substance, I’m sorry I wasted my breath.
Because these words mean nothing more than the sluts you’ve been with.
And the sluts you’ve been with mean nothing more than me.

So take away my will to fight, even though you can’t take away what I’m willing to give up.
What I’ve thrown on the ground like a filter of a cigarette.
I smoked our time away one by one.
Now we’re empty and hollow, emotions and nicotine left behind.
So now I’ll take what was mine, I’ll raise my thumb as I split our hands,
Be picked up by a strange and new face.

I wonder if you can even keep up,
If my ramblings have gotten caught in your head.
I wish I had the patience, I wish I had the faith.
But I’m saying goodbye and I’m taking your pride to save face.