Not This Time

I'm trapped in a box, no holes for air..
I'm suffocating..
Darkness fills my life..

As I watch the days slowly drag by me..
Mesmerized by his lies..
Dying on the inside..
Bleeding on the out..

Everything I touch falls to pieces..
Crumbles beneath my feet..

I fell for your lies..
I let you in..
You made me cry..
Just not this time..

I've let you down..
Hurt you..
And I've even made you cry..

But, I swear, this time I'll shed no tears..
I'm broken, but not because of you..
You'll never see my cry again..
And if you do, I hope you know it's not because of you..

You'll be sorry when I'm gone..
Honey, I'm way past gone..
You never tried to stop me..

I hope you know..
You've caused no pain..
Not this time..

The wine I drink..
Will be your blood..
The pain you feel..
Well.. you did this to yourself..

Help me..
This is my cry..
With a razor to my vein and a tear on my cheek..
Blood trickles slowly down my arm..
Making me numb..
Making my vision blurry..
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Okay, so my boyfriend just broke up with me and I'm actually kind of happy.. :) Feels like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders..