Drown My Troubles, Pills Pop My Problems

A dark cloud of negativity follows my around,
poking and prodding fighting me to the ground,
i can't fight what i have inside,
it's not really something i can hide,
i don't wanna be this way,
it just comes back every day,
i try to drown away reality, but liquor doesn't help,
pills aren't much better they won't bring me wealth,
pop one pop two nothings clear at all,
three hits four hits all it does is stall,
it all wears off in the end,
i'm flying without knowledge to lend,
i don't know what's going on and i don't care,
whatever occupies my dark blank stare,
i'm not sure which reflection is mine,
and from where i'm floating that's just fine,
all i ever hear is that i'm dying,
while everyone keeps trying,
to tell me the pills the are killing me,
there's something they just don't see,
i don't wanna stop living on a cloud,
never in my life have i been proud,
of the decisions that i always make,
they're all stupid every new mistake,
is it to live or is it to die,
let the pills decide i'm too high,
if the drugs kill me i'll move on,
to an all new fading dawn,
but through my E haze it's safe to say,
go away rain clouds return another day.