Sorry

I'm so sorry for what I've done,
So sorry for what I've become,
Sorry for the things I say,
Sorry that I act this way.

I'm sorry I let things get out of hand,
Sorry I couldn't make you understand,
I'm sorry for the hate I feel,
In my world that's so unreal.
I'm sorry chaos reigns my mind,
I'm sorry God won't be so kind
To end my life before it's time.

I'm sorry that you love me no more,
So sorry that I treat you so poor,
I'm sorry my life has turned out this way,
Sorry we had to see this day.

I'm tired of being hateful and sad,
I'm sorry i can't help but feel bad.
I hate being crazy and out-of-touch.
I hate that I've hated you so long, so much.
I'm sick of being the person I am,
I try to change everything I can.
But falling short is what I do,
I'll never be able to get through to you.
I let you take what was left of me, I let it go, I let it die,
I'm broken now, I say goodbye.

My pills that are meant to fix my head
Put my mind in cuffs, tied up in gray thread.
I escape into sleep, to close myself down
Drifting away to the black unknown.

Happiness is impossible for me achieve
Death will be the perfect reprieve.