Loving. Losing. Hurting. Dying

As I lie here.
Middle of the night
Radio on softly
I think of you
But you won't ever know that.

I think of what you mean to me
You mean the world
I would gladly die for you
But you don't know that do you?

I think of how much I lose you
To other girls
Like the one
Who decided she didnt like you after all
In two weeks of dating
I care for you as more than a friend
But you don't know that.

I think of how much im hurt by you
How much I know you don't like me that way
That i'm just a friend to you
And how much it hurts me
But you don't know that do you?

As all this happens
While im alone in my bed
The radio playing softly
But you dont know about it.

All of this runs through my mind
I occasionally shed a tear
Or maybe two
Possibly three
But you don't know about them.

As I think
About how much
you don't really know
I'm watching

I'm not watchiing you
The only thing I'm watcjhing
Is my heart
It's already in two
But I'm curious

I'm curious to see
How big of a piece
Will be chipped away tonight
From this lone heart
That no longer belongs to me.