There is a girl

There is a girl
She doesn't know how to handle things
Everything is spiralling out of control
Sometimes she can convince herself she's not really alive
Maybe she is in a nightmare
And she just can't wake up
You would never guess her secret if you knew her
She hides it so well
She seems so happy
Do you want to know the secret?
She cuts herself
She doesn't know why
And she doesn't understand why she resolved to it
But one thing she does know
She cant stop
But why
When she feels out of control
Overwhelmed with emotion
Cutting helps her calm down and able to think
But at the same time
When she feels so numb
Empty
Cutting helps her feel alive even for a minute
She didn't have an easy childhood
There were always arguments
Always giving
Never receiving
And she never felt good enough
Important enough
Who would care if I self harm?
Everyone's better off without me
That's what she told herself each day
She was everything she despised
Sometimes she would sit in her room crying
A razor blade in her hands at the ready
Hearing the laughter from downstairs
She'd never felt more alone
And yet no one noticed?
She just wanted a hug
Someone to love her and tell her everything's going to be okay
And that they care
So why didn't they?
Sometimes she thought about dying
Just taking a load of pills
And ending everything
She would never do it but sometimes she really wanted to
Who would care after all.... right?
She was only 12
A lonely and misunderstood girl
By the time she was 13
Her body was covered in scars and cuts
She just wanted to be loved
Was that too much to ask?
She always tried to be everyone else's idea of perfect
That she completely lost who she was
She lied to her friends and family
Just so she wouldn't see the tears of disappointment in their eyes
She wanted to someone to understand
To care
But it didn't happen
Who knows if she ever escaped from self harm?
Who knows if anyone ever cared for her?
One day you might even realise you've known her all along
That bubbly girl who tells you her cat scratched her
Could be hiding it all under a smile
She wants someone
Needs someone
There's a girl
Do you want to know her secret?
She self harms
So help her
Cause that's all she wants
Needs
Can you guess who she is?