I'm not

I cry out,
in agonizing pain.
hurtful words,
that has stained.
It hurts so bad,
its hard to breathe.
Your bloody spam,
and ungrateful words.
Hate was what I felt,
the murderous rage passed through.
You dont know me,
so dont try and change me.
Dont be a hypocrite,
and say I dont make sense.
Because I am fine the way I am,
to a special someone.
Dont attempt to bring me down,
and say that I am strange.
For words you scream,
I wont let phase.
So take it somewhere else,
cause I'm not leaving him.