Unheard,

I just want to be alone.
I promised to never do it.
I promised myself to never cry.
My weaknesses and anger never make anything better.
All I want is to be alone.
I wish I could be asleep forever.
No worry, no reality.
Only dreams.
Naive and stupid, I think I know best.
Protecting and correct, they just want me safe.
Trying to be selfless makes me the greediest.
I pray for rain to come.
It will blend in with my tears.
Hide the sadness.
Words bite, nip, and sting like slaps to the face.
My tear-stained face wishes it was masked.
My bruised heart wishes it isn't angry,
My sharp mouth is a devil that should be welded shut.
I try to be the best for them and it all blows up in my face.
I was wrong, I understand.
My greatest fear is to be a disappointment.
I want to be as good as the others.
It never happens.
I can't go back, only forward.
Why can't streets be made of candy?
Why can't trees be made of licorice?
Why is everything insignificant all I think about?
Priorities must change.
I must change.
If only it was so easy.
Yet they say the greatest difficulties have the greatest rewards.
Paper and pen can do so much.
Give relief, a safe house.
But I can't stay on pen.
Now it's time to face the world.