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My knees get weak.
It's a loss of sleep.
My heart starts to pound.
My body hears the sounds.
I turn away when you came near.
You just surround me in fear.
How could your cheat.
Now my anger boils up in heat.
You think we wouldn't find out.
Well, its fine, I'm over you now.
I don't think of all the crap you put me through.
You seriously thought I loved you?
I thought it was love then i found out your lies.
Never again will I have to look into your pathetic eyes.
You gave me hope in the worst of times
But it turns out trusting you was a crime.
You said that you loved me,
Said that you cared.
And silly me I thought you'd be there.
It turns out it was all a game.
You played with my heart and put me to shame.
I wish I could take back every "I love you" that was said.
Now I feel emotionally dead.
I thought there was a future between you and me.
You were the only one I could see.
I felt I could trust you with my heart and secrets,
But now I'm left with emptiness and regrets.
I hate that I kissed your deceitful lips.
I should have listened to my best friend's tips.
They warned me but I couldn't believe
That you of all people, would deceive me.
I wish it were all a bad dream.
I'd wake up and life would be back to a euphoric reality.
You and me, together forever.
You burned my heart and left it to sever.
A cinging pain running through my veins.
I realize now you're my biggest mistake.
I didn't think this I would have to take.
So i turn my back and let you walk away.
i dont care about what you have to say.
You cheated and it hurt like hell.
I thought you loved me enough to bring me out of my shell.
They were my two best friends and you hurt us all.
So screw you, i wont be here when you fall.